Dear Lord
Today is a very exciting day for me.
First of all, during the meeting, I was asked to present what I need to renovate on the Satellite Centre. There was critics in some of the things that were being mentioned. What was more upsetting for me is that every time, nothing concrete is being finalized. Don't know what is the point of meeting!
Then back at centre, I realized that every task in the centre will fall upon my shoulder; from admin to prgramme planning to volunteer management to home visits, etc. Lord, as KH shared, I should think that I was looked upon as someone who could handle the load. Yes, I think it is but Lord, I need Your strength to carry on. I need Your wisdom. Though I face objections or negative remarks, I rebuke that in Jesus' name, because I know that I am set apart for You.
Lord, please teach me. I am starting to feel the pressure and my shoulders are very tight again. I need You to help me. I surrender the renovation, the purchasing of items and the co-ordinations unto Your hands. I know that Your plans are to prosper me and not harm me as what You have mentioned in Jeremiah 29:11. I claim that in Jesus' name. Help me to grow in You. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
29 Feb 2012 - Wednesday
Dear Lord
Sorry that I missed writing to You for the last ten over days.
These days, I have feeling tired and unable to concentrate in the mornings. Not sure whether it is time for me to go and see a TCM. In the meantime, I am just going to depend on You.
Yesterday, I had taken MC and was not sure of what happened in the centre until A told me this evening on our way home.
On 27 Feb, A found out that one elderly had been telling lies about her condition. Her daughter whom I had seen and talked to before called me but I was not in the office. So A spent time talking to her and finding out from her what really happened to this elderly. First of all, A was shocked to find that the elderly lied about her mother staying in her brother's house when in fact, she was staying with this daughter. Then another thing that shocked A was when she found out that this elderly's psychiatric appointment was today and not some time ago like what she first told A. When I heard that, I told A that I found it fishy when that elderly mentioned that she could not take care of her mother as per doctor's advice. From what I understand, if a person has depression and someone has been staying with her for a long period of time, the doctor will not ask the depressed person to let that someone move to stay with some other people. Also, I told A that this daughter of the elderly was very filial and loves her mother and grandmother a lot. A told me that she could sense from the conversation she had with her and said that this daughter even broke down several times during the conversation.
Then yesterday, an elderly and a volunteer were shouting because of some craft papers. This elderly was so angry that even after A talked to him and that volunteer, he told A that he was already very unhappy when A told all elderly to sit with other elderly whenever they came to the centre. He could not understand why he could not sit with his friends. When A told him why he did not voice out during the feedback, he claimed that he had to do what he was told in order to join the activities here. Then he exclaimed that he would not be coming to the centre anymore.
For that volunteer, she got worked up when A told her that she was wrong to raise her voice and should instead showed grace. She was so upset and told A off. Then she went to another volunteer's house to complain. When she came back, she shouted at A and said that even this volunteer felt that she should stop volunteering in the centre. So I told A that as long as someone stayed too close to that volunteer whom she complained to, this kind of situation would occur.
Lord, I pray for Your covering upon each staff that we will not be the sandbag of such ridiculous rumors. Whatever these people try to scheme against us, I pray that no weapon formed against us will prosper. Also, I pray for Your covering upon this centre and the Satellite centre as well, that You will send committed volunteers who have Your heartbeat. I pray for those volunteers and elderly who are there to swing us down, that they will be slapped by You, not physically but spiritually that they will know the truth and acknowledge their wrongs. I pray that as staff and their friends, we will show grace to the volunteers and elderly in all we do. For those who oppose us for the sake of opposing us, I pray for Your protection and discernment to be upon us. Grant us the wisdom to handle such situations and let the words that will be spoken be from You.
I also commit the Satellite centre to You. Let the elderly who have been longing for this centre be glad to join the centre and to enjoy the activities there. Let them be grateful for the many opportunities that they can have in enjoying such activities and may they not engage in any gossips. I also commit SAC unto Your loving hands that the elderly will not take us for granted, but in everything to give thanks to You. May Your spirit of peace be with us. Also, I pray for this coming Mission Weekend that we will see many more volunteers who can give their time on weekdays and or Saturdays to bless the elderly. Let the volunteers have the discernment to what they hear and to clarify with staff when in doubt. I pray that You will continue to send miracles to happen.
In Jesus' name I commit these unto, Amen.
Sorry that I missed writing to You for the last ten over days.
These days, I have feeling tired and unable to concentrate in the mornings. Not sure whether it is time for me to go and see a TCM. In the meantime, I am just going to depend on You.
Yesterday, I had taken MC and was not sure of what happened in the centre until A told me this evening on our way home.
On 27 Feb, A found out that one elderly had been telling lies about her condition. Her daughter whom I had seen and talked to before called me but I was not in the office. So A spent time talking to her and finding out from her what really happened to this elderly. First of all, A was shocked to find that the elderly lied about her mother staying in her brother's house when in fact, she was staying with this daughter. Then another thing that shocked A was when she found out that this elderly's psychiatric appointment was today and not some time ago like what she first told A. When I heard that, I told A that I found it fishy when that elderly mentioned that she could not take care of her mother as per doctor's advice. From what I understand, if a person has depression and someone has been staying with her for a long period of time, the doctor will not ask the depressed person to let that someone move to stay with some other people. Also, I told A that this daughter of the elderly was very filial and loves her mother and grandmother a lot. A told me that she could sense from the conversation she had with her and said that this daughter even broke down several times during the conversation.
Then yesterday, an elderly and a volunteer were shouting because of some craft papers. This elderly was so angry that even after A talked to him and that volunteer, he told A that he was already very unhappy when A told all elderly to sit with other elderly whenever they came to the centre. He could not understand why he could not sit with his friends. When A told him why he did not voice out during the feedback, he claimed that he had to do what he was told in order to join the activities here. Then he exclaimed that he would not be coming to the centre anymore.
For that volunteer, she got worked up when A told her that she was wrong to raise her voice and should instead showed grace. She was so upset and told A off. Then she went to another volunteer's house to complain. When she came back, she shouted at A and said that even this volunteer felt that she should stop volunteering in the centre. So I told A that as long as someone stayed too close to that volunteer whom she complained to, this kind of situation would occur.
Lord, I pray for Your covering upon each staff that we will not be the sandbag of such ridiculous rumors. Whatever these people try to scheme against us, I pray that no weapon formed against us will prosper. Also, I pray for Your covering upon this centre and the Satellite centre as well, that You will send committed volunteers who have Your heartbeat. I pray for those volunteers and elderly who are there to swing us down, that they will be slapped by You, not physically but spiritually that they will know the truth and acknowledge their wrongs. I pray that as staff and their friends, we will show grace to the volunteers and elderly in all we do. For those who oppose us for the sake of opposing us, I pray for Your protection and discernment to be upon us. Grant us the wisdom to handle such situations and let the words that will be spoken be from You.
I also commit the Satellite centre to You. Let the elderly who have been longing for this centre be glad to join the centre and to enjoy the activities there. Let them be grateful for the many opportunities that they can have in enjoying such activities and may they not engage in any gossips. I also commit SAC unto Your loving hands that the elderly will not take us for granted, but in everything to give thanks to You. May Your spirit of peace be with us. Also, I pray for this coming Mission Weekend that we will see many more volunteers who can give their time on weekdays and or Saturdays to bless the elderly. Let the volunteers have the discernment to what they hear and to clarify with staff when in doubt. I pray that You will continue to send miracles to happen.
In Jesus' name I commit these unto, Amen.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Thursday - 16 Feb 2012
Hi Lord,
Today is another exciting day. Though I had migrane (again!), I thank You that it did not prevent me from doing what I was supposed to do. Thank God for the strength.
This morning, LYL had bruises on her left eye. Her daughter told me that she was puzzled why there were bruises on her mother's body for no apparent reason. However, LYL told me that she was beaten by her daughter again. Should I investigate this further before reporting this? Is it hallucination on LYY's side or is it that her daughter was trying to cover her acts? Lord, please grant me the wisdom to know.
In the afternoon, TCT & WAL stayed behind to do the cross stitches. TCT kept making mistakes on the work. When I asked her what happened, she told me that she could not sleep well last night. She kept waking up at night and could not sleep after that. I pray that she woill be able to sleep well tonight.
When I got back home, I realized that dad was drunk again. Lord, please remove his alcohol addiction and replace it with the desire to read Your word.
Well, tomorrow is another exciting day for me. In the morning, there will be exercises (I will be 'torturing' the elderly again), lunch from the nearby coffee shop and then maybe do some cross stitch again before going for home visits.
May You give me the strength to complete the work tomorrow and go to cell at night.
Thank you Lord for everything.
Today is another exciting day. Though I had migrane (again!), I thank You that it did not prevent me from doing what I was supposed to do. Thank God for the strength.
This morning, LYL had bruises on her left eye. Her daughter told me that she was puzzled why there were bruises on her mother's body for no apparent reason. However, LYL told me that she was beaten by her daughter again. Should I investigate this further before reporting this? Is it hallucination on LYY's side or is it that her daughter was trying to cover her acts? Lord, please grant me the wisdom to know.
In the afternoon, TCT & WAL stayed behind to do the cross stitches. TCT kept making mistakes on the work. When I asked her what happened, she told me that she could not sleep well last night. She kept waking up at night and could not sleep after that. I pray that she woill be able to sleep well tonight.
When I got back home, I realized that dad was drunk again. Lord, please remove his alcohol addiction and replace it with the desire to read Your word.
Well, tomorrow is another exciting day for me. In the morning, there will be exercises (I will be 'torturing' the elderly again), lunch from the nearby coffee shop and then maybe do some cross stitch again before going for home visits.
May You give me the strength to complete the work tomorrow and go to cell at night.
Thank you Lord for everything.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Wednesday, 15 Feb 2012
Hi Lord
I told You that I would be writing to You every day but I forgot for the last few days until last night while I was in bed, I suddenly remembered. Sorry Lord
Today, during staff devotion, we had Ps Darick Yeo to teach us about from Fear to Faith. Indeed, many times, we tend to maximize our problems so much so that we missed what You have installed for us. Using the example of a coin and putting it right in front of one of our eyes, it magnifies the coin till we cannot see what is behind it. But when we put it further away, we are able to see the whole environment. Lord, whatever I am going through now, I pray that I will trust in You. I will leave the problems to You and not magnify it, thus causing self-fear.
After the devotion, I walked back to the centre. It was a slow walk because I was still feeling giddy after the migrane attack. In fact, as I am writing this blog now, my left side of my head is painful; it is pounding. Don't know why this has been happening quite often now. Anyway, once I reached the centre not long after, TCT was there. She was also eager to learn something new. As Charmaine sent the lunch packs to the centre, I gave her the cross stitch that had been made for her. Not long after, the whole gang came to learn the computer games. They were playing the new game on making burgers. They found it very fascinating.
Then Jane came to the centre. She was there to see how Jessica was doing. I told her that generally she did a good job. Not today, she seemed to forget to stack up the chairs first before cleaning the floor. When Jane went to ask Jessica, she admitted that she had forgotten. Then when she got the cheque from JP, she told JP and Jane that she would be giving this cheque to her bf. They advised her against it. Before she left, she came to say goodbye to me and again I told her to give her mother the cheque instead of her bf. Little girl!
At around 6:05pm, AL told me and JP to standardize on two procedures. One is the time to stop giving breakfast which we agreed animously to be 10am and another is when to give out the breakfast. I told her that it would be better to give out only when all elderly have taken the seats so that it would not crash into them. AL then shared that she received feedback on last Thursday that there was conflicting instructions from me and JP. JP insisted that she was the last one to come to the centre after the exercise which was why she started serving breakfast. But I told her that there were many movements at that time. AL also shared that her version was not what she heard. However, after agreeing on these procedures, we happily went home.
While talking to AL during the train ride, my head started pounding again. Don't know why. I pray for total healing on my eyes and head. I am committing every thing in my body to You Lord.
Thank you for hearing me. In Jesus' name, Amen.
I told You that I would be writing to You every day but I forgot for the last few days until last night while I was in bed, I suddenly remembered. Sorry Lord
Today, during staff devotion, we had Ps Darick Yeo to teach us about from Fear to Faith. Indeed, many times, we tend to maximize our problems so much so that we missed what You have installed for us. Using the example of a coin and putting it right in front of one of our eyes, it magnifies the coin till we cannot see what is behind it. But when we put it further away, we are able to see the whole environment. Lord, whatever I am going through now, I pray that I will trust in You. I will leave the problems to You and not magnify it, thus causing self-fear.
After the devotion, I walked back to the centre. It was a slow walk because I was still feeling giddy after the migrane attack. In fact, as I am writing this blog now, my left side of my head is painful; it is pounding. Don't know why this has been happening quite often now. Anyway, once I reached the centre not long after, TCT was there. She was also eager to learn something new. As Charmaine sent the lunch packs to the centre, I gave her the cross stitch that had been made for her. Not long after, the whole gang came to learn the computer games. They were playing the new game on making burgers. They found it very fascinating.
Then Jane came to the centre. She was there to see how Jessica was doing. I told her that generally she did a good job. Not today, she seemed to forget to stack up the chairs first before cleaning the floor. When Jane went to ask Jessica, she admitted that she had forgotten. Then when she got the cheque from JP, she told JP and Jane that she would be giving this cheque to her bf. They advised her against it. Before she left, she came to say goodbye to me and again I told her to give her mother the cheque instead of her bf. Little girl!
At around 6:05pm, AL told me and JP to standardize on two procedures. One is the time to stop giving breakfast which we agreed animously to be 10am and another is when to give out the breakfast. I told her that it would be better to give out only when all elderly have taken the seats so that it would not crash into them. AL then shared that she received feedback on last Thursday that there was conflicting instructions from me and JP. JP insisted that she was the last one to come to the centre after the exercise which was why she started serving breakfast. But I told her that there were many movements at that time. AL also shared that her version was not what she heard. However, after agreeing on these procedures, we happily went home.
While talking to AL during the train ride, my head started pounding again. Don't know why. I pray for total healing on my eyes and head. I am committing every thing in my body to You Lord.
Thank you for hearing me. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
11 Feb 2012 - Beginnings
Hi Lord
Today, I've decided to keep you posted of every things that happen to me every day by writing to you daily. So, let me share with you what happened today.
This morning, there was a call in the morning. Mr Teo called to say that he would not be going to SAC because he had no strength at all. Then he mentioned that he would most likely go to hospital. At first, I thought his daughter would be bringing him there. But he said he would be calling ambulance to go on his own. When I heard that, I was very sadden. I could hear his tears in his voice. Lord, I don't know what happened to him. But I pray that You would keep him in Your arms.
Then I helped WAL to fill up form for the application of enhanced PCPS. As more information was needed, I went to her unit to gather more things. At the same time, I went to see another elderly and asked why he decided to stop the delivery of lunch. Though not much was said, I could sense that someone could have told him something. So I encouraged him to accept the lunch sponsored by CW. He agreed. That would have helped him to save some money.
When the activities started, Jess was teaching the elderly to do craft work. I did not know how to do so I went around. Also, ET & FC were doing the medical checks. So I went to see how they were doing. To my amazement, JP did not arrange the files according to the number that was given out by her. So I went downstairs with the files and sort them up, before taking them to them again.
FC was a great help. After he had done the recording, he would help to keep the files. May God bless his humble heart. He was so willing to do so many things, just to show that because he has been blessed, he will bless others.
In the afternoon, I went to that same elderly's home again. This time round, his wife was sitting in a sofa, but in a very weak situation. His daughter and son-in-law were also there. I gave the rice, underpants and body wash to him. According to him, he has to spend almost more than $200 to buy these items every month. May God help them in their finances. Also, I pray that there will be more sponsors or donations for this so that we can help to ease their burden as well.
Then I went to TCT's house. She had a laptop from her son. So I showed her how to use it and after that, told her how to do the new cross stitch. She was very excited.
Though some unhappy things have made the relationship between TCT, SL, THL and YSH, I pray that God, You will reveal the truth to them and may they reconcile.
I commit these people unto Your hands. I pray that tomorrow, I will wake up early to go to service and also to Chinatown for window shopping. May You help me not to overspend my budget.
Thank you and may Your peace be with my family members.
Today, I've decided to keep you posted of every things that happen to me every day by writing to you daily. So, let me share with you what happened today.
This morning, there was a call in the morning. Mr Teo called to say that he would not be going to SAC because he had no strength at all. Then he mentioned that he would most likely go to hospital. At first, I thought his daughter would be bringing him there. But he said he would be calling ambulance to go on his own. When I heard that, I was very sadden. I could hear his tears in his voice. Lord, I don't know what happened to him. But I pray that You would keep him in Your arms.
Then I helped WAL to fill up form for the application of enhanced PCPS. As more information was needed, I went to her unit to gather more things. At the same time, I went to see another elderly and asked why he decided to stop the delivery of lunch. Though not much was said, I could sense that someone could have told him something. So I encouraged him to accept the lunch sponsored by CW. He agreed. That would have helped him to save some money.
When the activities started, Jess was teaching the elderly to do craft work. I did not know how to do so I went around. Also, ET & FC were doing the medical checks. So I went to see how they were doing. To my amazement, JP did not arrange the files according to the number that was given out by her. So I went downstairs with the files and sort them up, before taking them to them again.
FC was a great help. After he had done the recording, he would help to keep the files. May God bless his humble heart. He was so willing to do so many things, just to show that because he has been blessed, he will bless others.
In the afternoon, I went to that same elderly's home again. This time round, his wife was sitting in a sofa, but in a very weak situation. His daughter and son-in-law were also there. I gave the rice, underpants and body wash to him. According to him, he has to spend almost more than $200 to buy these items every month. May God help them in their finances. Also, I pray that there will be more sponsors or donations for this so that we can help to ease their burden as well.
Then I went to TCT's house. She had a laptop from her son. So I showed her how to use it and after that, told her how to do the new cross stitch. She was very excited.
Though some unhappy things have made the relationship between TCT, SL, THL and YSH, I pray that God, You will reveal the truth to them and may they reconcile.
I commit these people unto Your hands. I pray that tomorrow, I will wake up early to go to service and also to Chinatown for window shopping. May You help me not to overspend my budget.
Thank you and may Your peace be with my family members.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Sleepy Day
Today, I had taken urgent leave. Was feeling very sleepy in the morning that my mind could only think of sleep. Lord, please let this be the last time for me to act this way. It's not glorifying You with this action of mine.
Many things have happened over the last few days. Some things really surprised me. First, it was S who told me about the struggles she faced at home. Then she told me that she had to go for operation for her kidney stones. After that, E told me that she resigned from her job again. She wanted to know how to hear from God correctly. She said that sometimes she could not understand why God opened a door but the situation became tough for her after some time. It was only just now when I heard K Love who talked about a door being opened. When God opens a door, He does not guarantee that it will be an easy route. In fact, most of the time, it is a difficult one, especially when we have not fully surrender ourselves to Him. So God uses the situation, the people around us to mould us. When I think about the work that He puts me in and the colleagues, I find this to be true but hard to follow. When I am in situation that I feel is frustrating because no body is lifting a finger to help or draw so many boundary lines, it is hard to know that God is trying to mould me. I get frustrated most of the time even though I try to hand the situation to God's hands. Lord, teach me Your ways. I know that with my own abilities, this is a limit to what I can do. With You helping me, I can do much more imaginable. Just like the crochet work that You showed me. Lord, let me have faith when faith seems weak. Let Your presence be more real to me in such situation. Lord, I need You every second, minute and hour of my life. Help me Lord.
Many things have happened over the last few days. Some things really surprised me. First, it was S who told me about the struggles she faced at home. Then she told me that she had to go for operation for her kidney stones. After that, E told me that she resigned from her job again. She wanted to know how to hear from God correctly. She said that sometimes she could not understand why God opened a door but the situation became tough for her after some time. It was only just now when I heard K Love who talked about a door being opened. When God opens a door, He does not guarantee that it will be an easy route. In fact, most of the time, it is a difficult one, especially when we have not fully surrender ourselves to Him. So God uses the situation, the people around us to mould us. When I think about the work that He puts me in and the colleagues, I find this to be true but hard to follow. When I am in situation that I feel is frustrating because no body is lifting a finger to help or draw so many boundary lines, it is hard to know that God is trying to mould me. I get frustrated most of the time even though I try to hand the situation to God's hands. Lord, teach me Your ways. I know that with my own abilities, this is a limit to what I can do. With You helping me, I can do much more imaginable. Just like the crochet work that You showed me. Lord, let me have faith when faith seems weak. Let Your presence be more real to me in such situation. Lord, I need You every second, minute and hour of my life. Help me Lord.
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