Today, I had taken urgent leave. Was feeling very sleepy in the morning that my mind could only think of sleep. Lord, please let this be the last time for me to act this way. It's not glorifying You with this action of mine.
Many things have happened over the last few days. Some things really surprised me. First, it was S who told me about the struggles she faced at home. Then she told me that she had to go for operation for her kidney stones. After that, E told me that she resigned from her job again. She wanted to know how to hear from God correctly. She said that sometimes she could not understand why God opened a door but the situation became tough for her after some time. It was only just now when I heard K Love who talked about a door being opened. When God opens a door, He does not guarantee that it will be an easy route. In fact, most of the time, it is a difficult one, especially when we have not fully surrender ourselves to Him. So God uses the situation, the people around us to mould us. When I think about the work that He puts me in and the colleagues, I find this to be true but hard to follow. When I am in situation that I feel is frustrating because no body is lifting a finger to help or draw so many boundary lines, it is hard to know that God is trying to mould me. I get frustrated most of the time even though I try to hand the situation to God's hands. Lord, teach me Your ways. I know that with my own abilities, this is a limit to what I can do. With You helping me, I can do much more imaginable. Just like the crochet work that You showed me. Lord, let me have faith when faith seems weak. Let Your presence be more real to me in such situation. Lord, I need You every second, minute and hour of my life. Help me Lord.
