A time to reflect

Last Saturday, I had a good gathering with my friends. Some of them I have not seen for months since the last gathering that we had.

Somehow, seeing them makes me reflect on many things. How we met, how we struggled to keep our friendships together despite the odds, how we struggled in our work, how we rubbed each other's shoulders at times, etc. No matter what happened to anyone of us, we always try to carry each other' burdens. However, there may be some who expect others to carry their burden but refuse to carry other people's burden. Sad but simple fact!

Sometimes, I think if I will to stay in AIA now, how will I survive? How will my life be different now? Similarly, if I will to stay in TCC, how will my life be now? What kind of tasks will I be exposed to now? Then moving to CCSS, should I continue to work in here? Where's the zeal that I had when I first stepped into CCSS? Why am I so dried up now? How come I don't know what to do at work now? Is it something wrong with me or am I expecting too much?

Lord, please show me the way, the clear specific direction that You want me to go. I pray that You will grant me the wisdom of words to speak to HJ tomorrow by creating a good environment for us to talk and for me to pour out what is in my mind without pointing finger at anyone. I pray that if this talk fails, then show me what You want me to do. Give me money to pay off bills, debts, expenses and still have money to save for rainy days. Let all that I do be a stepping stone to where You want me to be ultimately. Help me to overcome obstacles and difficult people. Help me to see what You see. Lord, I need You to go through this life. PLEASE, LORD, HELP ME. In Jesus' name, Amen.