God, what is my call?

Yesterday, I have talked to Chew Lian and Shuyi about the possibilities of returning to Church to work. We talked about the push and pull factors that caused me to resign and they also asked how I would react if the same factors surfaced if I was able to work in Church. Frankly speaking, I told them that I was more clear-minded of what I want in life now. I want to honour God more. But there is an issue - the many medical leaves I had took while working there. They asked me of my health condition. I really don't know why my health is not so good while there. All I know is that I don't seem to have enough rest.

Then I went to meet Pastor Bea, a nice lady who looks a bit fierce. She opened another door for me, something that I dream of doing but not really bold enough to try. She told me to work with elderly people. Why I said that this is something I dream of? Well, in one of the office cell that we had while working in Church, Pastor Lam ever asked what we thought of doing if there is no limit of resources. I remembered saying that I wish to open a home for the elderly people, making sure that they have a place to sleep, a place to call their home, let them eat well, spend time listening to them, just be there for them. Then she said that when we had these desires, it did not happen now. But rather God has already placed them in us when He moulds us in our mothers' wombs. So when this proposal from Pastor Bea was given to me, I asked myself, is this from you, God?

This is my sincere prayer:

Please let me have a crystal clear answer to whether this is the call You have for me. To go to where Pastor Bea had proposed? I need to decide fast so that I can quickly let Shuyi know to ease her of other things. God, can You let me know before Tuesday?

Corinne told me that all the experiences we had so far, God will not let any go to waste. What should I do Lord? I need to quit from this current job. That's for sure. But where should I go next? Please help me to make a wise decision and let this decision be the correct one. I want to make a difference to the elderly's lives. I know I don't have much patience, especially when talking to my parents. What can I do to make sure that this is not something for me to try out but rather it is Your will for me, Your direction for me? Will I be lazy by not volunteering my time for the elderly or by making excuses for not going to the elderly cell? Lord, what is Your plan for me? Please show me.

I commit these to Your hands. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.