On 27 Apr, a group of students came to our centre for activities. Early in the morning, though it was a raining day, there were elderly coming early. But what was unexpected was that a group of elderly had gone for another organization's outing without informing us. Much food was left over and we had to pack for those elderly who attended our centre to bring the food back home. What was very disappointing was that when my supervisor went to fetch some elderly, he saw this group of potang elderly. They either looked away or pretended not to see him.
This same group of elderly had done this not once but twice. The other time when that organization's staff came storming into our centre and pull them to attend their outing, this group just left. Despite my supervisor informing that staff that we are unable to release our elderly when we have programs of our own, it fell into deaf ear. But this time, we really need to make a stand. Such betrayal is very hard to bear.
Tomorrow, I have to address this to this group. Lord, please grant me the wisdom of words to speak to them. Let the words that come out be firm yet still filled with love for them, that they will not take this negatively but admit the responsibility that they need to have as well. I commit this into Your hands Lord.
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Wednesday, February 06, 2013
二月六日，星期三
今天发生了两件事。第一件让我有很多的感触。第二件事让我有感恩的心情。
今天早上，我很早就到了公司。当时还没人到。不久后，Gabriel就进来了。当我们开始说话时，我发现他很自然的看了Jaena的座位。然后他告诉我他们两已经分开了。我们就坐着开始了这个话题。Gabriel很坦然的说是他的错。说着的时候，眼眶红了。在这时候，我仿佛感受得到他的无奈和他对Jaena的爱。之后，他告诉我他曾经结过婚。婚姻维持了两年半就离婚了。我很惊讶他会这么坦白说出他的过去。毕竟我们不是很好的朋友或同事。不过，我也很高兴他这么的信任我。我就接着这个机会问他是否很想有女朋友。他说一切愿上帝安排。
不久之后，Fun就进来了。Gabriel也和Fun说了分手的事。Fun就邀请他和我们去吃煮炒。然后我们就去了devotion。
上完了devotion, Ps Beatrice就和我们讲解关于2012年的好成绩。我们每个员工将会拿到$1，100。这件事让每个员工都感到很惊讶，不知所措。我很感谢上帝的恩典赐给我。谢谢您，耶稣。我不会乱花钱的。
愿上帝保佑我们弟兄，Gabriel，让他能挣戳起来。谢谢您的保佑和恩惠。冯耶稣的名祷告，阿门。
今天早上，我很早就到了公司。当时还没人到。不久后，Gabriel就进来了。当我们开始说话时，我发现他很自然的看了Jaena的座位。然后他告诉我他们两已经分开了。我们就坐着开始了这个话题。Gabriel很坦然的说是他的错。说着的时候，眼眶红了。在这时候，我仿佛感受得到他的无奈和他对Jaena的爱。之后，他告诉我他曾经结过婚。婚姻维持了两年半就离婚了。我很惊讶他会这么坦白说出他的过去。毕竟我们不是很好的朋友或同事。不过，我也很高兴他这么的信任我。我就接着这个机会问他是否很想有女朋友。他说一切愿上帝安排。
不久之后，Fun就进来了。Gabriel也和Fun说了分手的事。Fun就邀请他和我们去吃煮炒。然后我们就去了devotion。
上完了devotion, Ps Beatrice就和我们讲解关于2012年的好成绩。我们每个员工将会拿到$1，100。这件事让每个员工都感到很惊讶，不知所措。我很感谢上帝的恩典赐给我。谢谢您，耶稣。我不会乱花钱的。
愿上帝保佑我们弟兄，Gabriel，让他能挣戳起来。谢谢您的保佑和恩惠。冯耶稣的名祷告，阿门。
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
A friend gone
On 29 Dec 2012, a friend had gone to be with The Lord. Her name is Wong Kim Hong. She was 55 years old. She had been battling with breast cancer since last Sep.
I first met Kim Hong when I started working in this company. Se always put on a smile and was never angry or impatient. Not long after knowing her, I found out that she had stage 1 breast cancer. She was very brave. She kept relying on God for strength and never lost her focus on God. When she went for chemo, she went on her own. After she recovered, she came back to volunteer. She loved volunteering so much that she told me that she had fully recovered, she would definitely come back. Whenever I saw her, Poh Sim and Huang Ling together, I always teased them that they were going for mahjong session. Then Kim Hong would always laughed loudly while Huang Ling would say something else.
When Kim Hong had her relapse, I did not know at all. I thought that she was recovering at home and would get better. However, her situation went worse. When I visited her on last Fri with Michelle, Sharon and Dawn, she had just finished her final round of radiotherapy. Doctor mentioned that her condition need to be monitored for the next few days. Though she was asleep when we visited her, at least she had some sleep. According to niece, Justina, she had problem sleeping at night. On Saturday, when Geok I'm and Ann went to visit her, she was feeling pain in her head. After doctor gave her morphine, she was sleeping. But she never woke up from the sleep.
She had told her cell leader that she was not afraid of death. She just wanted to before from pain. Tomorrow, 2 Jan 2013, is her last day on earth. I hope that I can send her off her final journey.
Kim Hong, till we meet in our Father's house. Will always miss you.
I first met Kim Hong when I started working in this company. Se always put on a smile and was never angry or impatient. Not long after knowing her, I found out that she had stage 1 breast cancer. She was very brave. She kept relying on God for strength and never lost her focus on God. When she went for chemo, she went on her own. After she recovered, she came back to volunteer. She loved volunteering so much that she told me that she had fully recovered, she would definitely come back. Whenever I saw her, Poh Sim and Huang Ling together, I always teased them that they were going for mahjong session. Then Kim Hong would always laughed loudly while Huang Ling would say something else.
When Kim Hong had her relapse, I did not know at all. I thought that she was recovering at home and would get better. However, her situation went worse. When I visited her on last Fri with Michelle, Sharon and Dawn, she had just finished her final round of radiotherapy. Doctor mentioned that her condition need to be monitored for the next few days. Though she was asleep when we visited her, at least she had some sleep. According to niece, Justina, she had problem sleeping at night. On Saturday, when Geok I'm and Ann went to visit her, she was feeling pain in her head. After doctor gave her morphine, she was sleeping. But she never woke up from the sleep.
She had told her cell leader that she was not afraid of death. She just wanted to before from pain. Tomorrow, 2 Jan 2013, is her last day on earth. I hope that I can send her off her final journey.
Kim Hong, till we meet in our Father's house. Will always miss you.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
14 March 2012
Dear Lord
Today is a very exciting day for me.
First of all, during the meeting, I was asked to present what I need to renovate on the Satellite Centre. There was critics in some of the things that were being mentioned. What was more upsetting for me is that every time, nothing concrete is being finalized. Don't know what is the point of meeting!
Then back at centre, I realized that every task in the centre will fall upon my shoulder; from admin to prgramme planning to volunteer management to home visits, etc. Lord, as KH shared, I should think that I was looked upon as someone who could handle the load. Yes, I think it is but Lord, I need Your strength to carry on. I need Your wisdom. Though I face objections or negative remarks, I rebuke that in Jesus' name, because I know that I am set apart for You.
Lord, please teach me. I am starting to feel the pressure and my shoulders are very tight again. I need You to help me. I surrender the renovation, the purchasing of items and the co-ordinations unto Your hands. I know that Your plans are to prosper me and not harm me as what You have mentioned in Jeremiah 29:11. I claim that in Jesus' name. Help me to grow in You. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
Today is a very exciting day for me.
First of all, during the meeting, I was asked to present what I need to renovate on the Satellite Centre. There was critics in some of the things that were being mentioned. What was more upsetting for me is that every time, nothing concrete is being finalized. Don't know what is the point of meeting!
Then back at centre, I realized that every task in the centre will fall upon my shoulder; from admin to prgramme planning to volunteer management to home visits, etc. Lord, as KH shared, I should think that I was looked upon as someone who could handle the load. Yes, I think it is but Lord, I need Your strength to carry on. I need Your wisdom. Though I face objections or negative remarks, I rebuke that in Jesus' name, because I know that I am set apart for You.
Lord, please teach me. I am starting to feel the pressure and my shoulders are very tight again. I need You to help me. I surrender the renovation, the purchasing of items and the co-ordinations unto Your hands. I know that Your plans are to prosper me and not harm me as what You have mentioned in Jeremiah 29:11. I claim that in Jesus' name. Help me to grow in You. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
29 Feb 2012 - Wednesday
Dear Lord
Sorry that I missed writing to You for the last ten over days.
These days, I have feeling tired and unable to concentrate in the mornings. Not sure whether it is time for me to go and see a TCM. In the meantime, I am just going to depend on You.
Yesterday, I had taken MC and was not sure of what happened in the centre until A told me this evening on our way home.
On 27 Feb, A found out that one elderly had been telling lies about her condition. Her daughter whom I had seen and talked to before called me but I was not in the office. So A spent time talking to her and finding out from her what really happened to this elderly. First of all, A was shocked to find that the elderly lied about her mother staying in her brother's house when in fact, she was staying with this daughter. Then another thing that shocked A was when she found out that this elderly's psychiatric appointment was today and not some time ago like what she first told A. When I heard that, I told A that I found it fishy when that elderly mentioned that she could not take care of her mother as per doctor's advice. From what I understand, if a person has depression and someone has been staying with her for a long period of time, the doctor will not ask the depressed person to let that someone move to stay with some other people. Also, I told A that this daughter of the elderly was very filial and loves her mother and grandmother a lot. A told me that she could sense from the conversation she had with her and said that this daughter even broke down several times during the conversation.
Then yesterday, an elderly and a volunteer were shouting because of some craft papers. This elderly was so angry that even after A talked to him and that volunteer, he told A that he was already very unhappy when A told all elderly to sit with other elderly whenever they came to the centre. He could not understand why he could not sit with his friends. When A told him why he did not voice out during the feedback, he claimed that he had to do what he was told in order to join the activities here. Then he exclaimed that he would not be coming to the centre anymore.
For that volunteer, she got worked up when A told her that she was wrong to raise her voice and should instead showed grace. She was so upset and told A off. Then she went to another volunteer's house to complain. When she came back, she shouted at A and said that even this volunteer felt that she should stop volunteering in the centre. So I told A that as long as someone stayed too close to that volunteer whom she complained to, this kind of situation would occur.
Lord, I pray for Your covering upon each staff that we will not be the sandbag of such ridiculous rumors. Whatever these people try to scheme against us, I pray that no weapon formed against us will prosper. Also, I pray for Your covering upon this centre and the Satellite centre as well, that You will send committed volunteers who have Your heartbeat. I pray for those volunteers and elderly who are there to swing us down, that they will be slapped by You, not physically but spiritually that they will know the truth and acknowledge their wrongs. I pray that as staff and their friends, we will show grace to the volunteers and elderly in all we do. For those who oppose us for the sake of opposing us, I pray for Your protection and discernment to be upon us. Grant us the wisdom to handle such situations and let the words that will be spoken be from You.
I also commit the Satellite centre to You. Let the elderly who have been longing for this centre be glad to join the centre and to enjoy the activities there. Let them be grateful for the many opportunities that they can have in enjoying such activities and may they not engage in any gossips. I also commit SAC unto Your loving hands that the elderly will not take us for granted, but in everything to give thanks to You. May Your spirit of peace be with us. Also, I pray for this coming Mission Weekend that we will see many more volunteers who can give their time on weekdays and or Saturdays to bless the elderly. Let the volunteers have the discernment to what they hear and to clarify with staff when in doubt. I pray that You will continue to send miracles to happen.
In Jesus' name I commit these unto, Amen.
Sorry that I missed writing to You for the last ten over days.
These days, I have feeling tired and unable to concentrate in the mornings. Not sure whether it is time for me to go and see a TCM. In the meantime, I am just going to depend on You.
Yesterday, I had taken MC and was not sure of what happened in the centre until A told me this evening on our way home.
On 27 Feb, A found out that one elderly had been telling lies about her condition. Her daughter whom I had seen and talked to before called me but I was not in the office. So A spent time talking to her and finding out from her what really happened to this elderly. First of all, A was shocked to find that the elderly lied about her mother staying in her brother's house when in fact, she was staying with this daughter. Then another thing that shocked A was when she found out that this elderly's psychiatric appointment was today and not some time ago like what she first told A. When I heard that, I told A that I found it fishy when that elderly mentioned that she could not take care of her mother as per doctor's advice. From what I understand, if a person has depression and someone has been staying with her for a long period of time, the doctor will not ask the depressed person to let that someone move to stay with some other people. Also, I told A that this daughter of the elderly was very filial and loves her mother and grandmother a lot. A told me that she could sense from the conversation she had with her and said that this daughter even broke down several times during the conversation.
Then yesterday, an elderly and a volunteer were shouting because of some craft papers. This elderly was so angry that even after A talked to him and that volunteer, he told A that he was already very unhappy when A told all elderly to sit with other elderly whenever they came to the centre. He could not understand why he could not sit with his friends. When A told him why he did not voice out during the feedback, he claimed that he had to do what he was told in order to join the activities here. Then he exclaimed that he would not be coming to the centre anymore.
For that volunteer, she got worked up when A told her that she was wrong to raise her voice and should instead showed grace. She was so upset and told A off. Then she went to another volunteer's house to complain. When she came back, she shouted at A and said that even this volunteer felt that she should stop volunteering in the centre. So I told A that as long as someone stayed too close to that volunteer whom she complained to, this kind of situation would occur.
Lord, I pray for Your covering upon each staff that we will not be the sandbag of such ridiculous rumors. Whatever these people try to scheme against us, I pray that no weapon formed against us will prosper. Also, I pray for Your covering upon this centre and the Satellite centre as well, that You will send committed volunteers who have Your heartbeat. I pray for those volunteers and elderly who are there to swing us down, that they will be slapped by You, not physically but spiritually that they will know the truth and acknowledge their wrongs. I pray that as staff and their friends, we will show grace to the volunteers and elderly in all we do. For those who oppose us for the sake of opposing us, I pray for Your protection and discernment to be upon us. Grant us the wisdom to handle such situations and let the words that will be spoken be from You.
I also commit the Satellite centre to You. Let the elderly who have been longing for this centre be glad to join the centre and to enjoy the activities there. Let them be grateful for the many opportunities that they can have in enjoying such activities and may they not engage in any gossips. I also commit SAC unto Your loving hands that the elderly will not take us for granted, but in everything to give thanks to You. May Your spirit of peace be with us. Also, I pray for this coming Mission Weekend that we will see many more volunteers who can give their time on weekdays and or Saturdays to bless the elderly. Let the volunteers have the discernment to what they hear and to clarify with staff when in doubt. I pray that You will continue to send miracles to happen.
In Jesus' name I commit these unto, Amen.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Thursday - 16 Feb 2012
Hi Lord,
Today is another exciting day. Though I had migrane (again!), I thank You that it did not prevent me from doing what I was supposed to do. Thank God for the strength.
This morning, LYL had bruises on her left eye. Her daughter told me that she was puzzled why there were bruises on her mother's body for no apparent reason. However, LYL told me that she was beaten by her daughter again. Should I investigate this further before reporting this? Is it hallucination on LYY's side or is it that her daughter was trying to cover her acts? Lord, please grant me the wisdom to know.
In the afternoon, TCT & WAL stayed behind to do the cross stitches. TCT kept making mistakes on the work. When I asked her what happened, she told me that she could not sleep well last night. She kept waking up at night and could not sleep after that. I pray that she woill be able to sleep well tonight.
When I got back home, I realized that dad was drunk again. Lord, please remove his alcohol addiction and replace it with the desire to read Your word.
Well, tomorrow is another exciting day for me. In the morning, there will be exercises (I will be 'torturing' the elderly again), lunch from the nearby coffee shop and then maybe do some cross stitch again before going for home visits.
May You give me the strength to complete the work tomorrow and go to cell at night.
Thank you Lord for everything.
Today is another exciting day. Though I had migrane (again!), I thank You that it did not prevent me from doing what I was supposed to do. Thank God for the strength.
This morning, LYL had bruises on her left eye. Her daughter told me that she was puzzled why there were bruises on her mother's body for no apparent reason. However, LYL told me that she was beaten by her daughter again. Should I investigate this further before reporting this? Is it hallucination on LYY's side or is it that her daughter was trying to cover her acts? Lord, please grant me the wisdom to know.
In the afternoon, TCT & WAL stayed behind to do the cross stitches. TCT kept making mistakes on the work. When I asked her what happened, she told me that she could not sleep well last night. She kept waking up at night and could not sleep after that. I pray that she woill be able to sleep well tonight.
When I got back home, I realized that dad was drunk again. Lord, please remove his alcohol addiction and replace it with the desire to read Your word.
Well, tomorrow is another exciting day for me. In the morning, there will be exercises (I will be 'torturing' the elderly again), lunch from the nearby coffee shop and then maybe do some cross stitch again before going for home visits.
May You give me the strength to complete the work tomorrow and go to cell at night.
Thank you Lord for everything.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Wednesday, 15 Feb 2012
Hi Lord
I told You that I would be writing to You every day but I forgot for the last few days until last night while I was in bed, I suddenly remembered. Sorry Lord
Today, during staff devotion, we had Ps Darick Yeo to teach us about from Fear to Faith. Indeed, many times, we tend to maximize our problems so much so that we missed what You have installed for us. Using the example of a coin and putting it right in front of one of our eyes, it magnifies the coin till we cannot see what is behind it. But when we put it further away, we are able to see the whole environment. Lord, whatever I am going through now, I pray that I will trust in You. I will leave the problems to You and not magnify it, thus causing self-fear.
After the devotion, I walked back to the centre. It was a slow walk because I was still feeling giddy after the migrane attack. In fact, as I am writing this blog now, my left side of my head is painful; it is pounding. Don't know why this has been happening quite often now. Anyway, once I reached the centre not long after, TCT was there. She was also eager to learn something new. As Charmaine sent the lunch packs to the centre, I gave her the cross stitch that had been made for her. Not long after, the whole gang came to learn the computer games. They were playing the new game on making burgers. They found it very fascinating.
Then Jane came to the centre. She was there to see how Jessica was doing. I told her that generally she did a good job. Not today, she seemed to forget to stack up the chairs first before cleaning the floor. When Jane went to ask Jessica, she admitted that she had forgotten. Then when she got the cheque from JP, she told JP and Jane that she would be giving this cheque to her bf. They advised her against it. Before she left, she came to say goodbye to me and again I told her to give her mother the cheque instead of her bf. Little girl!
At around 6:05pm, AL told me and JP to standardize on two procedures. One is the time to stop giving breakfast which we agreed animously to be 10am and another is when to give out the breakfast. I told her that it would be better to give out only when all elderly have taken the seats so that it would not crash into them. AL then shared that she received feedback on last Thursday that there was conflicting instructions from me and JP. JP insisted that she was the last one to come to the centre after the exercise which was why she started serving breakfast. But I told her that there were many movements at that time. AL also shared that her version was not what she heard. However, after agreeing on these procedures, we happily went home.
While talking to AL during the train ride, my head started pounding again. Don't know why. I pray for total healing on my eyes and head. I am committing every thing in my body to You Lord.
Thank you for hearing me. In Jesus' name, Amen.
I told You that I would be writing to You every day but I forgot for the last few days until last night while I was in bed, I suddenly remembered. Sorry Lord
Today, during staff devotion, we had Ps Darick Yeo to teach us about from Fear to Faith. Indeed, many times, we tend to maximize our problems so much so that we missed what You have installed for us. Using the example of a coin and putting it right in front of one of our eyes, it magnifies the coin till we cannot see what is behind it. But when we put it further away, we are able to see the whole environment. Lord, whatever I am going through now, I pray that I will trust in You. I will leave the problems to You and not magnify it, thus causing self-fear.
After the devotion, I walked back to the centre. It was a slow walk because I was still feeling giddy after the migrane attack. In fact, as I am writing this blog now, my left side of my head is painful; it is pounding. Don't know why this has been happening quite often now. Anyway, once I reached the centre not long after, TCT was there. She was also eager to learn something new. As Charmaine sent the lunch packs to the centre, I gave her the cross stitch that had been made for her. Not long after, the whole gang came to learn the computer games. They were playing the new game on making burgers. They found it very fascinating.
Then Jane came to the centre. She was there to see how Jessica was doing. I told her that generally she did a good job. Not today, she seemed to forget to stack up the chairs first before cleaning the floor. When Jane went to ask Jessica, she admitted that she had forgotten. Then when she got the cheque from JP, she told JP and Jane that she would be giving this cheque to her bf. They advised her against it. Before she left, she came to say goodbye to me and again I told her to give her mother the cheque instead of her bf. Little girl!
At around 6:05pm, AL told me and JP to standardize on two procedures. One is the time to stop giving breakfast which we agreed animously to be 10am and another is when to give out the breakfast. I told her that it would be better to give out only when all elderly have taken the seats so that it would not crash into them. AL then shared that she received feedback on last Thursday that there was conflicting instructions from me and JP. JP insisted that she was the last one to come to the centre after the exercise which was why she started serving breakfast. But I told her that there were many movements at that time. AL also shared that her version was not what she heard. However, after agreeing on these procedures, we happily went home.
While talking to AL during the train ride, my head started pounding again. Don't know why. I pray for total healing on my eyes and head. I am committing every thing in my body to You Lord.
Thank you for hearing me. In Jesus' name, Amen.
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